Not feeling so hot today.  Feeling pretty down actually.  I stayed the night at my parents with the children so my mom could help them get up, ready, and out of the door on time.  I have sat here in their comfortable home reflecting a great deal on what I am up against.  I am not even sure what this is.  Sometimes I feel like I am going to scream or punch a wall because of my frustrations.  Other times I feel a sweet peace, that everything will be okay.  I love watching my children play at their Nana and Papa's.  It brings me so much comfort to be home close by.  I was just reflecting on how it has been nearly six years since we moved home from Utah.  I missed my family so much while we were out there.